Well, to say that I was nervous race morning is a bit of an
understatement. A personal record for "bathroom visits" was secured,
and I literally squeaked when my coach asked me how I was feeling in
transition area. Off to a great start. Fortunately, everything seemed
to be in working order with all my gear and I made my way to the swim
start, pulling a double duty trot as a warm-up on the way over. I
didn't get much of a swim warm-up, as they called us out of the water
almost immediately after I submerged myself. This didn't overly concern
me however, as I don't really have a consistent warm-up routine anyway.
The "just wing it" approach is more what I'm used to. We waited on
the beach for the Pro men to get in the water and start, and additional,
obscure emotions started sneaking up as the seconds passed. Like, I
almost started crying (wtf?!).
Fast forward to the race start, we
were off and the lead group of ladies (so all of them) were out of sight
in 5 seconds....ok. My initiation had begun, and it was going to be a
long swim. I don't really know how to feel about my swim. There was
current and some chop, but nothing crazy. I felt like I was slightly
zigzagging but nothing debilitating. I realized very quickly that it's
much easier to spot some splashing ahead of you than it is to spot a
buoy several hundred yards away. I made it to the stairs at the swim
exit after what seemed like forever, and I came out of the water in 8th
out of 9 ladies. Reality check in full swing. Although I have to say,
seeing that one extra bike still parked on the rack gave me a strange
confidence boost. Hooray, I wasn't last.....yet.
So the bike and I
were out of transition in no time. I didn't make it a quarter of a mile
before I realized that my only water bottle (I race with one for this
distance) was completely loose and in danger of being let-go. I had
forgotten to tighten the velco strap in transition. Besides the fact
that I sort of needed the contents in it, I would be penalized if I
dropped it. So I stopped as quickly as possible to secure it and picked
back up again with a nagging feeling that I was already letting this
race get away from me. What a rookie mistake, I mean come on. Even so,
I was determined to have a good bike split and pick my watts up just
ever so slightly from what I had been racing at throughout my last few
races. The bike course for this race is quite technical with several
turns and speed bumps to maneuver around. As I hit my first turn, my
front tire hit something and the next thing I know, I'm bear-hugging my
aero bars at a 90 degree angle. I guess my hands slipped because they
were still wet? Not entirely sure what happened there, but any
spectators in the area would have seen the color completely drain from
my face. Oh jeez, that could have been bad. After that, things
smoothed out for the most part. Watts were where I wanted them, but I
was all by myself. At some point, a few of the Open men caught up and
started barking at me that I was "blocking" and most assuredly getting
penalized for it at that very moment. Let me explain. The Pros have to
abide by this weird stagger rule, where we not only have to stay out of
the drafting zone directly behind a cyclist in front of you (the zone we
all know and love), but you also have to stay several meters to the
SIDE of said cyclist. As in, the next person ahead of you could be a
mile up the road and if he/she is riding on the right, I have to move
all the way to the left. If they move to the left, I have to zip over
the right. So at the moment I was riding all the way to the left. This
felt very weird, and I can't blame them for yelling at me, but
apparently, they were also allowed to pass me on my right, unbeknownst
to them I guess. This flustered me a great deal for a few seconds
before I realized that an official had literally been tailing me the
entire time, and if I had done something incorrectly, I would have been
penalized and stopped for it. The rest of the bike was relatively
uneventful, I was pleased with what my legs were giving me and succeeded
in bumping up those watts a few ticks. The last few miles of the bike
always bring mixed emotions for me. This means the race is nearing the
end (yay! because I'm most likely starting to get tired now). However,
it also means the run is coming......the dreadful, awful run.
I am
not exaggerating when I say that I want to stop running and DNF before I
hit the first mile marker.....every race. I am not a runner, this does
not come naturally for me, it seriously sucks the entire time. And no
surprise, this day it was no different. It is a constant battle to keep
the negative, self-deprecating thoughts out of my mind over the 6.2
miles. This is the area I need the most work on, and I have definitely
made substantial progress, but I'm still nowhere near the other ladies.
I mean, not even close. And yet, no matter how crappy I feel, I always
manage to make it the finish line in one piece without completely
falling apart. So I know it's in me, it's just really, really, really
hard....but hey, that's the game, right? I started off with a bang the
first mile, complete with face plant in front of spectators, and tried
to hang on as best I could. I always feel after every race, that this
particular run was the hardest yet, and again, this race was no
different. I'm hoping that the: "it doesn't get easier, you just get
faster" mantra applies. Mile 6 felt like death and I made the mistake
of lying down at the finish line, where I was immediately scooped up and
carried to the medical tent. Admittedly, I was a tad woozy but fine
within a minute or two and so glad to be done! Holy crap, I just raced
with the Pros!! And I didn't completely embarrass myself!!! And I
actually threw down a decent race!!! Let the happiness commence!
Now I have no idea what to do next, I have no other races on my calendar....help.
And yes, it is 1:30AM. Why am I awake right now?